Once Shriji Maharaj was staying at Gadhada. There, once He became very much disappointed. He thought, “I have come on the earth for the redemption of crores of lives. I move about from village to village. Still much is yet to be done.” Thinking thus constantly, He got up in the midnight. He took one of his devotees with Him and started off. Sukhpur is small village in the north of Gadhada. There lived a certain vaishnav-satsangi. Maharaj thought of going there. He thought that by going there His disappointment would go away. Maharaj reached there at midnight. That Satsangi had a marriage ceremony on that day. There was joy of marriage everywhere. They welcomed Shriji Maharaj. He was given a seat.
Then they resumed their own work. The work was that of marriage ceremony. Relatives from different villages had gathered to enjoy the marriage. Everyone was proud and arrogant of marriage. Thus they, leaving their manners, were speaking indecent language and were behaving rashly. They were singing marriage songs full of indecent language(fatana) and were making fun of one another. All were there - ladies, gentlemen, young and old. There was no control over their speech, no control over their behaviour. Not only that but prostitutes and eunuches were also dancing. There was neither civility nor culture, yet everyone was enjoying to his utmost satisfaction.
Shriji Maharaj came here to remove His disappointment. On the contrary, on seeing this, His dismay, disappointment increased. He got up from the seat and without informing anyone started off. When the landlord knew this, he came running. He joined his hands and begged, “Maharaj, please don't go away, please return.” Mahraj said, “I will have to go today.” Maharaj returns to Ghadada the same night. He had a letter written addressed to all His Satsangi. There in the letter He commanded that “no vaishnav should ever witness prostitutes or eunuches dancing. No devotee of mine, whether a man or women, shall ever participate in marriage. And others who participate should only sing devotional songs praising God. Who so ever disobeys my command shall never be thought of as my devotee.” After getting ths letter written, Maharaj's disappointment disappeared.
Maharaj worried much for the welfare and happiness of his devotees, day and night. He determined never to find fault in his devotees. Therefore, Maharaj was watchful about the behaviour of His devotees. He could easily find out the fault, if any, in a devotees behaviour. Maharaj was greatly pained if any of His devotees, a man or a women, had a fault in his behaviour.
The vaishnav(haribhakta) were so dear to Maharaj that He loved them like a father to a son. How much does a father feel when his only son passes away? such fatherly grief Maharaj suffered when his devotee went astray.
Maharaj has observed this in GADHADA MADHYAM PRAKARANA OF VACHANAMRIT. As it is to be borne in mind by everyone of us, it is reproduced below. Maharaj observes, “I continue here since long that is because of my devotees' firm and selfless behaviour. Even if I am thousands of miles away from these devotees, I am always with them. And devotees who lack such sincerity are very far from me even though they live with me. I have already advised the great paramhansas never to relate to me any fault in behaviour of any man or woman in Satsang. Why? When I hear such tales I feel grief as is felt by a childless father when he hears about the death of a new born baby. Moreover, sometimes I feel so much that I wish to go away leaving this Satsang. Therefore, a devotee whose behaviour is selfless is dearer to Me, and I have a fond tie with such devotees here and there in the other world.”
Shriji Maharaj worried much day and night for the welfare and happiness of his devotees. One of these examples is sighted in this lesson. The saint poet Swami Nishkulanand has sketched this incident in his great volume “Bhakta Chintamani”.
Shriji Maharaj and happiness, misery and disappointment ? quite impossible! But He was born a man and he must live like man. If He lives not like man but like god, people will, no doubt, worship Him, but they (people) will not follow Him, nor will they imitate Him. They will not obey his commands.